I open my eyes slowly as the dawn is breaking, seems magical how the slightest ray has changed the perspective of the whole world. In that morning twilight, the monsterous shapes scaring you through the night may just turn out to be the very fruitful trees that you needed.Even the old tread path where you went again and again, finding no escape, is now a bit easier, as you know how to set foot right even though you cant avoid it. The darkest path in the night could now turn out to be a sparkling waterline which may be the very way which gets you out of the dreary place, but
You need to wait for the dawn.
The most effective way to pass the dark time is, to know that it shall pass.
But what of the wounds? They are not going to just heal themselves. they need something more. I need to find a healing. After getting hurt, after staring at the wound for so long, after realizing that yes, it has happened, after getting over the shock, I take the painkillers, the diversions, which keeps me off from feeling the pain. But for how long? The wound is deep enough, sooner or later the painkillers are going to stop working. But what after that? The solution, the medicine, where is that? And then it strikes..
Acceptance..
Just like going to a doctor, to understand what has happened, to suggest a remedy..
Only after acceptance does the process start, the true action of letting it heal... I start to find out what can be done despite that wound and just not stay bedridden, but start on a new journey to find out the new I, for better or for worse.
I remove the bandage, be OK with it to be seen, not be ashamed of it, or of the fall that caused it, be OK to let all know I am ready to move ahead, throw away the bandages. I may need to take a support for some time, I wont be ashamed of that either, coz I shall work to be strong enough to become a support myself. I shall grow like the roots of great banyan tree, in all directions, but being firm on the ground too. The sounds of dread that were scary enough, I shall use them as my marching band. The inner demons I encountered alone in the dark that threatened to rip me apart, now seem the only thing that held me together. I wear the Matador, the Hydra, the Zmey on my arms, the perfect ornaments for my wound..
Let the healing begin.
The world may not be beautiful always but it is wonderful.
And yes, the dawn is worth the wait.